this day only comes once a year

each year as this day comes closer i tend to reflect back on my near nineteen years of life, on past experiences and of course, past birthdays. and as i think back, i have been very fortunate to always have good friends to spend my birthdays with, regardless of the fact that most of them are not my friend anymore, that doesn't change the great memories i have on that special day that only comes but once a year. as i think back my first memory of a birthday would honestly be one when i was only about eight, and every year i would have a group of three or four girls over, we would roller skate, or bowl, or go mini-golfing and then do cake and presents and call it a night. and as i got older that continued until i was fifteen, and lets be honest, when your fifteen mini-golfing with a small group of girls isn't always every girls idea of a great day, so i instead spent it with a boy, for the first time, and it was that birthday that i realized that no matter who i spent the night with, whether it be boys or girls or family, it was always great (with the small exception of my sixteenth birthday, which was slightly awkward :/, but that is besides the point), seventeen and eighteen proved to be the best so far (note pictures on top from the big one-eight), no surprise there, and as i look forward to getting older and dread it all at the same time, i always forget to remind myself that whether it seems like the day will be bland or boring, it always ends up amazing in the end, which is what counts. so the lesson learned today, is to enjoy every day, especially a day dedicated to you :), regardless of who you spend it with. and note to self: happy birthday me :) (almost), make it amazing, just like every other year.