the dreaded day

every year, that day comes around and i try at all costs to avoid thinking about it but its ineveitable that its right in front of my face, all day long, regardless of the year. i mean what really is the point of it? its nothing that special that needs to be so glorified and hyped up. its just another day to tell the person your in a relationship with, or married to, or dating, how you feel about them. but tell me this, why do you need a day designated to do that? should i not use every other day to tell someone how i feel about them, and just wait for the one day a year that says its okay for that day? i think no. we do not have days for telling people how much we dislike them, or our jobs or the people we see everyday, so why is it so necessary to have a day dedicated to love, and telling people you love them you can do that anytime, (and i encourage all to do it on a daily basis, especially since it keeps your certain someone happy). all it does is make people who do not have husbands or wives or boy/girl friends, even more aware of the fact that their single, and alone on this holiday dedicated to couples. if we are going to have a couple awareness day, which is pretty much a large portion of v-day, then we should also have a single day, fair? fair.

revelations

so i have this, complex, i guess you can call it, to make everything as perfect as can be. when i write it needs to all look the same, and look nice and neat (it never does half the time), when i put my clothes away they need to be in their specific designated drawers, when i put music on my computer, there has to be the album artwork to go along with it, etc. no matter how hard i work each day to keep things as close to perfection as they can be, something always throws me off, it never fails. and obviously everyone knows there is no such thing as "perfect", that's plain to see, but today i realized that even striving for perfection is not always necessary, its okay to have bumps in the road, or plans that don't go quite according to plan, or to write a little sloppy sometimes. so life lesson for today, just do your best, even if it is far from perfection. your best is all that matters.

new editions

when i was about nine or so, my kitten (well cat i guess then) peaches died of diabetes, and it was the worst thing i thought would ever happen to me (naive i know), but when your nine and your pet dies, its tragic. ever since that day i have wanted a pet, we have cats, but they aren't mine per say, they just live in the house with me. well in our last house we could only have 2 pets, and we have two cats, so i was eagerly waiting for one to die (that still has yet to happen...) and now in our new house, i wanted a kitten of my own so bad, but we still had 2 cats, so instead i go the next best thing, a hamster. now you see, i have been asking for a pet, specifically a kitten at first, then other assortments like fish and hamsters, for the past few months, and the answer was always no or maybe. well when my lovely birthday came along, i finally got my wish, i got to pick out a hamster :) with immense excitement we went to Pets Mart and i picked out my very own little hamster, a dwarf hamster to be exact. and after picking out my little girl, and getting all her supplies i headed home to put together her cage and give her food and everything (the cage was MUCH more difficult then you would ever expect!) and now i have an adorable little hamster (pictured above). well obviously with having a pet comes the responsibility to take care of the animal, that part is easy, she is low maintenance, just needs food water and to playing her little ball occasionally, but the catch is, their nocturnal, yes you heard me, nocturnal. so now accompanying my adorable little pet, is the obnoxious noise of her wheel going round and round (pictured in video above), constantly. which makes it quite hard to fall asleep, but despite the noise she is amazing and I'm a very proud parent. so welcome to the family nutter butter. we love you butt :)